This Christmas is messed up

It's that time of year.
When you have to buy the gifts.
For the ones you know don't deserve it.
It's hard to get what you want for that family member.
Unless someone else in your family get you involved.

It's hard for friends and lovers too.
Unless they told you.
Then it could be easy.
Unless they want something expensive.
You need new ones by then.

For me, I got a new phone weeks ago.
I need a new wire for my tablet.
Also, I need a laptop or a computer that does gaming and let me be on the internet.
I also need friends to understand me.
Also a lover to understand me.
Also to show off.
He would be better then my brother's lover.
Because I have no ideal, what she looks like.

This Christmas is messed up.