My insanity

I am tired already.

My day to be alone.

My mother is in the hospital.

My brother is bowling.

I don't give a crap what my father is doing.

I have to do everything.

I am alone in this world.

I wish I was somewhere else.

But, I can't.

This is where I need to belong.

This is my ever lasting.

My only thing.

My only sanity is the videos until I don't know when.

I am alone.

This is me.

This me going insane.

This is my madness.

Because I am alone.

Plus I don't have any friends.

Just like my mother said.

I am crazy.

Or am I?
I have a friend.
She is my only trusted friend.
I wish I have others.

But, I only trust in her.
She knows who I like.
Who I dislike.

That is all.

My friend

My friend.

You are still working on your poems.

I hope you know that I am too.

While I'll be running my channel on YouTube.

Actually two, since I like gaming as well.

I hope you are okay my friend.

I hope your daughter is doing well.

I hope your love is doing well too.

I hope everyone you care for is well.

My mother is not well.

I told you that she has what Mike had.

I hope it's the same in the end.

My brother is going to step up and take care of the both of us.

I wish I was not in this peril of madness.

I wish I could see him.

You know who.

I know he's in Orlando for that gaming thing.

I don't know if he will go back to Japan before coming back to be in Los Angeles.

I hope he doesn't run in to him and her.

Because if he do, you know I will spread rumors.

I don't want to spread rumors.

It's not my style.

But, for the sake of meeting him,

I must stop them both.

They are like those other two.

They are horrible.

All they can't do is shut it.

They push me away.

Like she did.

Away from him.

You are my friend.

You know how it is.

Those four can get bent.

Because they will never speak to me.

EVER!

I just want to be like them.

You know the chef and his pro wrestler wife.

I want to be successful.

I want to have a man who is a pro wrestler.

You know that is true.

My friend.

My secret and my sin

The secret of this is I am in love with you.
The sin is that I love someone else.
But, the madness that I love you more then him.
Why?
You are so funny.
So strong.
You are around my age, plus one.
You are more worth it.
Even though, I enjoy him,
But, you are more of what I need.
You are mature enough.
You do what you love to do.

Plus, you keep those two around.
They are more enjoy to watch.
Heck you three are the best.
You are real more funny.
I really enjoy you.
You are who you are, despite you are under a different name.

Him on the other hand.
I don't know.
All we have in common are our height,
Our eating habits,
Cars,
And playing that game.

I am nuts,
But, you are the best.
That is why you are being both.
My secret and my sin.

Tired

I am tired.
So are you.
We need our rest.
Can't you see.
You work hard.
So did I.
It's been so long.
Come to bed.
We can talk until we fall asleep.
I know it's not asking much.
But, I am worry about you.

Is something the bother?
Are you need to see the doctor?
No.
Okay.
I am worry about you.
Just tell me what is wrong.
I am here for you.
Like you are here for me.
We promise each other that we won't give up on each other.
Like the last one did.

You know him.
He knows you.
You know what he done.
Won't admit it.
You told me the truth.
You told me how much you love me.

We should not be fighting.
I know you got mad at me.
Because I said that I want you to win.
You wanted me to win that game.
But, I know you were better.

Come to bed.
I am tired.
But, without, I feel restless.
I am tired.

Chase for the Title

Note: This is the most ridiculous poem, because 1, it's very long, 2, I left some parts out, and 3, this is the freaking results of New Japan Pro Wrestling Dominion Show!

Last summer I predicted that someone would win a tournament.
I knew that he would be the one.
His name was only pop in my head.
The tournament ended.
He won.
The one I choose.

He would get his title shot this past January.
He would face the champion.
The champion has a nickname from a old movie from the 90s.
They go at it.
However, the champion retains.

Now here we are.
Five months later.
Now what?
He gets his rematch.
The show happened.
Everyone I follow on Twitter probably saw.
I have not saw it.
Until now.

I am not going on Twitter.
Not going on Facebook.
Nor Instagram.
May check on some videos on YouTube if my notifications go off.
But, I want to get to the main event!

Watching the first match.
A wrestler named David Finlay is in this.
He looks like his dad.
But, he looks like two other wrestlers that I know of.

More of the show.
Legends battle it off.
There is a mask wrestler called Tiger Mask W.
I went to see what it is about.
It's an anime and also the wrestler.
Who is known as Kota Ibushi.
Which I thought he was signed with WWE.
Oh, my bad.
I was not suppose to know that he's the mask fighter.

Tag Team gauntlet.
Six man.
Adam Page, Zack Sabre Jr,, Ricochet, Juice Robinson, and Seiya Sanada are a few names that I know are in this match.
Representing their teams.
Seiya Sanada's team won and retain their titles.

Tag team favorites and YouTube creators,
Nick and Matt Jackson aka The Young Bucks are going for more gold,
since they won tag gold in a company called Ring of Honor.
Challenging the tag team known as Roppongi Vice.
Rocky Romero and Trent Beretta is what they are at best.
Both tag teams are going back and forth.
Trying going for that three count.
But, instead a submission hold by Nick on Rocky.
Winning the tag titles again.
It's their six time holding them.

The tag team known as War Machine.
Are hunting for the Young Bucks for the Tag Titles they have from their win in Ring of Honor.
Set to defend their titles against The Young Bucks fellow clubmates, Guerrillas of Destiny.
Tag teams are going at it.
A mention about Raymond Rowe have been in a motorcycle accident.
Which I have no ideal that have to be mentioned in the match.
The referee is knock out.
Heel moves are happening.
Chair is involved.
Raymond Rowe does not want to cheat.
But, the Guerrillas of Destiny got him for the win.

Cody Rhodes is next.
I know he can't be using the last name.
Because WWE are jerks not letting him having it.
Because they are using it for a tag team tournament named after his late father.
However, he's in a world of hurt.
Because he's going up against "Big Mike" Michael Elgin.
I have no ideal why he's nicknamed that.
Ask Elgin yourself.
I can't.
Because Elgin block me on twitter!
The two go at it,
Elgin got the advantage on Cody by weight.
They battle until Cody got the win.

KUSHIDA is next.
That is what it has to be.
He gets his title shot.
Against Hiromu Takahasi.
KUSHIDA carries a trophy that he won.
Also he has some gold from Ring of Honor.
He seeks Hiromu's title.

Here comes Hiromu Takahasi to the ring.
Hiromu's hair style rips off of that of Jinny Jacobs some would say.
He also stole the entrance way of Rey Mysterio when he was in the WWE!
Hiromu is nicknamed "The Ticking Timebomb".
Well, let's see if KUSHIDA can defuse him.

They go at it.
They fight in the ring.
They fight out of the ring.
When will this end?
It ends if KUSHIDA survives.
Or Hiromu survives.

Both of them in a daze.
KUSHIDA still stands tall.
Hiromu not give up.
But, he taps out!
KUSHIDA IS CHAMPION!

After the match.
KUSHIDA cuts a promo.
Until he got attack by BUSHI!
Using the green miss on KUSHIDA!
I don't know why.
But, BUSHI is challenge him for one title.
However, I know Marty Scurll wants the other one KUSHIDA has!

A familiar name I see.
The name Minoru Suzuki is up.
He is the Neverweight Champion.
Putting up against Hirooki Goto.
Suzuki is a pain.
Because of him and his stable, Suzuki-gun,
has been a menace.

I do say this is true.
Just ask Colt Cabana.
He would explain about Suzuki-gun very well.
Because two of them known as Killer Elite Squad,
Made Colt Cabana and his tag partner really mad!

However, Suzuki is in a death match.
Which it's an very hardcore match.
Nobody really dies in the match.
It's also a lumberjack match too.
Which it's really bad or good.
Depends on the wrestler.

Match gets so out of control!
Suzuki tries to trigger one of the legendary wrestlers who is on commentary.
Goto and Suzuki's stablemates are making it more insane!
Goto was beat down, but, he fights back!
Suzuki is never going to quit!
The match is getting insane!
The referee was calling for three!
But, Suzuki has a goon to pull the referee out!
This is not going to end well.
Suzuki retains.
What a cheater!

After the match, an asssult on Goto.
A wrestler known as YOSHI-HASHI saves Goto.
Suzuki knows that he's the next challenger.
So afraid as YOSHI-HASHI attacks!

The next match, which it is right before the main event.
Two wrestlers go at it.
One of them is the champion, Tetsuya Naito.
Who has been disrespectful by damaging the championship belt.
The challenger, Hiroshi Tanahashi.
Wants to reclaim of the title that Naito has.
All because he respects it.
Ever since he beaten Shinsuke Nakamura for the title.
He wants to be respectful.
This is a match for the ages.
Besides the main event.

The match begins as Tanahashi attacks Naito!
They go at it!
Naito works so brutal!
So does Tanahashi!
The men are hurt by any means, but still going at it.
This is getting insane!
Tanahashi needs to end this!
He does a high risk!
But at what cost?
He hurts his arm further.
But, he needs to win!
Naito is fighting back!
Tanahashi works his leg!
Naito fights back!

The match is in favor of Naito!
It looks bad for Tanahashi!
But this keeps going!
Tanahashi has fighting spirit!
He went for another high risk!
But, Naito saw that coming!
How this is going to end?

Slaps!
Suplex!
Breaking fingers?
Every last thing that these two use.
Tanahashi is not going down!
He does everything!
But, Naito is not going down either!
Tanahashi is using a submission on Naito!
Naito can't escape!
Tanahashi is going for it all!
Naito taps out!
Hiroshi Tanahashi wins!
He got the gold!
With his arm in pain!
But this match is so epic!
The match is going to be hard to beat!

It's the main event!
Champions in the past who held the title including WWE Superstar AJ Styles!
Who will have the title!
The challenger comes out!
My choice who won the the tournament!
The one who tried back in January!

The champion comes out!
He always shows off!
With his fake money!
This madness needs to stop!

The referee warns those who is in the challenger and champion's corner no trouble.
They don't.
Who is in the champion's corner?
A wrestler known as Gedo.
Who is in the challenger's corner?
Why it's the tag champions, The Young Bucks!

The match begins!
So far, the challenger has the upper hand!
The champion wants to take it all in.
The champion goes for it, but the challenger knows.
This match is taking my breath away!
No it's not because I am cheering for the champion!

I am watching the handsomeness of the challenger!
He is so breathtaking!
The champion is trying to put the challenger in pain!
But, the challenger is fighting back!
This is so madness!

Heck the match is looking so good due to the challenger!
Matt Jackson loves the replay!
The challenger is very strong in this match!
But the champion is not going to give up!
This is so insane!
The champion push the challenger to the fence!
I gasp in shock!
The champion went to try and go after the Young Bucks!
But, his focus on the challenger!

This is really getting insane!
The champion is in pain.
I am not giving up on the challenger as I still cheer him on!
This is so insane!
I don't know how many times I will say insane, because it is!
The challenger is working hard on the champion, but, the champion is fighting back!

As the match is getting crazy!
The champion is trying to cheat!
He is going to use it on the challenger!
The challenger is fighting back!
I don't think he knows about the table!
Now he does and he knows he won't cheat!

The champion is trying to end the match!
He signal the end?
I don't think so!
The challenger is standing tall!
This match is so going at it!
This could be the end!
But, no!
2 count!

Could this be the end?
No.
But, the challenger is so doing well in the match!
The champion is hanging on!
I don't know what is so crazy!
The madness of the champion!
Or the handsomeness of the challenger!

The match got to intense!
They went to far!
They go until time ran out!
This is not enough!
This is so unfair!
This is so wrong!
This need to continue!
I don't know if I should cry!
I should cry!
This is not fair!
The champion retain!

This is so not right at all!
The match should kept going!
I don't know how to feel!

The champion is talking about the challenger.
I don't know if he wants to go at it one more time.
I wish I know.
Someone needs to end the champion!

I Do Not Want To

I do not want to fight.

I do not want to harm.

I do not want to have domestic abuse.

I do not want my mother to be sad.

I do not want my mother take full responsibility of my actions.

I do not want to sink so low to his.

I do not want to harm you dad.

But, you don't give mom money.

You don't take care of the house.

You treat us like garbage.

You go out and screw with every last woman.

While mom and Jonathan works.

While all of you think I am doing nothing.

But, I can't let you know what I am really doing.

I am being a YouTuber.

I am being an artist.

I am being a gamer.

I am being a poet.

Once my hard works pay off.

You will be end up living in a nursing home.

Watch by nurses.

Making sure you don't leave.

I will be the winner of this family.

The smart one.

Actually mom will be in a retirement home.

Jonathan will be living in a apartment.

I will be living in Japan.

Will enjoy my newfound life.

Still be popular.

While you, dad, you will be thinking.

"Why did I treated my daughter like trash?"

Without realizing, I am better then you.

Better then mom.

Better then my brother.

But, I do not want to start domestic violence, because of you.

How can you say I have a good life?

How can you say I have a good life?
When we live in a crappy house that dad won't fixed.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I can't lose the weight.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I can't drive.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I am worry about you and your health.
How can you say I have a good life?
When you haven't kick the man-child that is my brother.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I don't have a cent to my name.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I don't have so many subscribers on YouTube.
How can you say I have a good life?
When I don't have anyone to love and start a family.


I don't have a good life.
I am trap in a crappy house.
So overweight.
Can't drive, because no one teach me.
When I am very worried about my mother and her health.
Why my brother is acting like a man-child and can't find an apartment.
When I don't have money.
When I am not popular.
When I don't have a man in my life.

I want to have these things.
I am fighting for.
All because I have to worry.

My mother is so mean and being a fool.

Pregnant

The woman felt ill the last couple of weeks.
She was not herself.
In fact when the man came home from a show.
The woman collapse in from of him.
He grab her.
Scared as can be.
He had no choice.
But, to take her to the hospital.

At the hospital.
He was scared.
She was being checked out.
He was worried that his wife would be dying.
But, the doctor came to him.
Tell him that she is alright.
He told him where she is at.
He saw her.
She sees him.

He says to her, "Are you okay?"
She looks at him and says, "I'm fine. Just a spell"
The doctor came in and says, "She will be fine. In fact her blood test were normal, but really different"
The man looked at the doctor and wonders what he means by.
The doctor says these words, "You are going to be a father"
The man was in shock.
The woman was silent.

The man looked at her.
Then he smiled and kiss her.
She was assured that he is happy.
That they would be a family.
It would to be.
That the woman is indeed pregnant.

My Mother's Health is not a Joke!

I am sad and shedding tears.
My mother had to tell me what is making her sick.
Why she hasn't eat alot.
Why she could lost weight.
It turns out she has a tumor.
On her left kidney.
This is shocking that this is happening to her.
But, this is not a joke.
As how she describe what her co-workers says.
My mother's health is not a joke.

The reason why I am upset about it.
Is because this has happen to someone else.
His name is Mike Hopes.
Otherwise known to the indy pro wrestling fans as Tim Donst.
He revealed two years ago at a wrestling show.
That he too has a tumor on his right kidney.
I was really worried about him.
He had fellow wrestlers like Kevin Steen or to the WWE fans as Kevin Owens,
tweeted about him.
Beg his fans help him.
I was glad to see the support.
But, I had to wait to see if the tumor was benign or cancerous.
Turns out, it was benign.

He was allowed to wrestle again.
It had to be in July.
Where he kicked Nick Gage's butt at one wrestling show.
Then he won a championship title at another show, the following night.
From fellow wrestler, Joe Gacy.

I was glad to know about this.
But, now this is happening again.
To my mother this time.
I am really upset.
To think about this.
I don't know what to do.
But, have to take care of her again.
For how long?
Two weeks this time.
I really hope.
I been having a bad year so far.
This is a living nightmare for me.
I need hope.
I need happiness.
I need...



...someone to take this sadness away from me.
Someone who can make me laugh again.
I hate this,
I hate that my mother is sick.
I hate that it could happen to me.
This is not a joke.
This is serious health issue that could be really bad.
My mother's health is not a joke!
Her co-workers can go to hell!