Thursday, November 30, 2017

Is this love or what?

I can't pull away from this man.
Who has being so nice.
And I being an ass.
Why?
Because I like him.
You can say that I have feelings for him.
My heart hasn't been the same.
Ever since I was betrayed on my birthday.
I need a fresh start with someone new.
Even though, I am still shy around him.
Is this love or what?
I don't know.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

No One Gets A Pass

A lot of trouble.
Someone is being a creep.
One person stop it.
To end that creep.
News spread far and wide.
People are in horror.
A lot of people are divided.
Those who are cursing out the person saying they lost a job.
Others say, "Good riddance vile creep!".
To that person, who done it.
I hope they get help.
I hope they are free.
I hope they know that they did the right thing.

To anyone goes against this.
Think twice what you are going to say.
No matter what if this was wrong or right.
It's over to that person.
No matter what.
Also, no one gets a pass.

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Astrid, Riza, and Meza

The kind Astrid.
The fierce Riza.
How can I say anything more about you two?
You are the good ones.
I wish there were more ones like you in the gaming world.
But, you two belong to Meza.
Sweet Meza.
How can I know to say things about you.
But, I can't.
I can't for any reason why.
It's just how handsome you are.
That is all I could say.
Riza and Astrid are really kept you sane, sometimes.
But, you squirreling makes me laugh.

My father

I do not want to be disturbed again.
For what my father did.
It's unforgivable.
He comes in just complaining about his coin collection.
While I am trying to watch Meza, one of my favorite streamers.
I am so wound up.
"Just e-mail mother, father!"
I could not say that.
I just wanted to watch Meza and forget the problems in front of me.

Monday, November 27, 2017

Tim Donst: The Man who is still Awesome

Tim Donst (Photo credit to LuchaMax)

I know someone in wrestling.
We been following each other for 4 years.
I forgot how awesome he is.
We like each others tweets and stuff.
The night before Thanksgiving.
He send out a tweet.
I had to retweet it.
Suddenly, I got a direct message from him.
He thanks me for the retweet and wishes that I have a happy Thanksgiving.
I said your welcome and hope the same.
I knew he was wrestling on Black Friday.
I was hoping he would win.
He lost.
I don't care that would be.
But, all I know,
Tim Donst: The Man who is still Awesome.

The Stars

The Stars (Photo credit by Realistic Poetry)

The stars are surrounding me.
Protecting me from my heart broken.
Knowing that one day he will come.
To be surrounded by love from the stars.
Until that day comes.
The stars will protect me from anyone who wants to hurt me.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Salty stuff

I question my choices.
To what reason?
It's because I am open stuff up.
Nothing about my preferences.
It's about some salty stuff.
Who is it?
I have a long list.
I don't know express it.
If you want to know.
Just ask.
Maybe we would find out what it is.

Monday, November 20, 2017

What happened on Saturday? A venting poem.

Anger I had.
Mad as can be.
What happened on Saturday?
Just have to ask.
I wasn't happy to see him.
He was still bald.
Have new ring gear.
Calling himself, "The Truth".
Yet, I still mad at him.
I know him as a jerk.
Why?
I tweeted at him a few times.
No response.
I feel like he hates me.
I block him.
Don't make me unblock him.
It was asked before.
That did not go well.
I don't want to make it worse already.
I rather him block me.
That is all.

I want to know much of him.
I did not expect that he has anxiety, like I do.
However, this is for the best to keep what I said is what I want.
I want him to block me.
Because I hate him and I am sure he hate me.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Icy Heart. Fire Heart. A Loving Poem.

Icy heart.
Fire heart.
My heart is so icy.
But, his is so fire.
I have been stabbed by others.
But, his heart shield it.
He knows that I need the love.
I know that he cares.
My heart has been so icy.
But, his heart that is fire, warm my heart.
With the love that we have.
My heart is warming up.
The world is granting us the blessing.
We are the ones who are in love.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

That Look

I know it's been a while.
I am not going to blame the photographer on this.
He took the photo and I forgot that there was a man with handsome and his looks seen.
It felt like you want to kiss it.
I forgot how excellent that was taken.
I want the madness to stop.
He already push me away.
I already move on!
But, why this is linger?
Please tell me why?

Strife against...

I am in a strife situation.
My mother is making me upset.
I need to be happy.
But, yesterday she made me sad.
I felt like I did not want to stream.
I failed everyone.
I failed myself.
I let her win yesterday.
Today I am not.
This is me.
I will not give up.
I will fight until the end!

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

The dream that is different

I had a dream.
Unlike any other dream.
The dream was so different.
I am starting to know why.
It’s because I know that this has me hearing the voice.
The voice that has said my name before.
The voice belongs to him.
It’s so serious that this would happen.
I dream that he and I were seeing each other in many ways.
Also, a picture that is shown a thousand words.
I see him in the suit.
It’s makes him so handsome.
Just how I saw it on his videos and streams.
I was different.
It’s so real.
But, I know it was a dream.

Monday, November 13, 2017

The neighbor

When someone you know so long is on the edge of death.
Questions are looming.
Is she fine?
Is she okay?
What happened to her?
My mother believes that she was not doing good.
I don't want to pry.
I know that family has gone through stuff.
Deaths, wedding, birth, anything.
They had a life.
But, the question will be.
Will she be okay?

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Trying to enjoy a stream

I am watching Meza stream Stellaris.
Someone is being mean to him.
Telling him what to do.
I want to enjoy his stream.
But, for someone is being rude.
I feel like I want to punch that user.
But, I will let Riza fried him.
She has more power then I do.
I just want to enjoy the stream and MEZA!

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Weird day

It’s cold.
My hands are cold.
I need to be warm.
Watching Meza on Twitch.
Still can’t say anything to him.
This is a very weird day.
What is wrong with me?
Don’t be afraid.
Just say hi to him.
Just to let him know!
He will be happy.

Yes, I know he will.

We thank you

In this time of age.
While terrible things are going on.
We should be thanking those who serve our country.
No matter if it's Veterans Day or Remembrance Day.
This is a day of thanks to those who are serve in the wars.
From World War II to the war against terrorism.
We thank you for your service.
No matter how someone disrespect you.
You deserve our gratitude.
Even it's just one day.
This should last a lifetime.
We thank you for your service.

To you...

The names that I know.
The faces to tell me.
What I need to know.
From my family.
To the people I am starting to build and gain trust.
I have feelings for some.
But, the problem is that my mother can't accept you all.
No matter if I explain her to you.
To her, she will believe that you don't exist.
She feels that you are someone else.
Even if you show yourself to her.
Still won't believe.
To everyone who has been there.
To the lives.
To friendships.
To love.
To everyone.
This is how it is.
My life is becoming weird.

To you...this is me.

This poem will not make any sense.

Our friendship could be in danger.
I did not want to tell her about someone else.
Someone who lives in London.
Someone was originally from Budapest.
Someone who plays games as I do.
I don't want to tell her about him.
I rather be focus on what we have in common.
Wrestling and poetry.

I can't explain that I knew about him from another.
How can I?
I would have to start from the beginning.
Please don't make me go there.
I am so doom!

Why am I freaking out?
Well, because I post something on Instagram.
Something that heck, I don't want my mother see.
I wish I can tell them all.
MY MOTHER DON'T LIKE ALL OF YOU!
Because she knows that you don't exists.

I am sorry my friends.
Both who I wish I could tell.
But, until you know the real me.
I am just a fool.

Say something

The handsome that you are.
The looks make me want to smile.
I want to tell you that you look handsome.
But, the words are not there.
You see me looking so beautiful.
The words you said make me have confidence.
I speak back.
Telling you the words I want to say.
You smile back.

Friday, November 10, 2017

People who I know

My mind is wondering.
A huge group of people.
From different countries.
From different lifestyles.
To what are these people to me?
I know them.
It's my favorites.
It's the ones who I like.
However, they don't know I exists.
I have a terrible mindset.
Just a sad thing to say.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Family drama

All I wanted was not to deal with it.
The instant my mother did.
I need to stop it.
This was nothing about Russians.
This was about a mad man who used to work at Goldman Saks.
Bashing on a gun toting innocent woman about a scandal that she was not involved.
It's pathetic that my father would go there.
Just to trigger me.
What's worse that my mother kept it going.
Neither my brother and I want this.
Although, he told me to eat my own words.
All I wanted is a calm day.
Just wait until I get to watch someone who wants to see me smile.
But, no!
Not to this family!
The family of miserable and outdated jokes!
It's 2017!
Not 1997!

The Winter Night

It's a cold night.
So cold.
It is Winter.
It's so mad that I am alone.
Without you, why I feel to look.
I need your warmth.
I need your love.
I need you to tell me that it would be fine.
I wish to see you at this night.
I wait for you.

You come to me.
You see me.
You know that you need me as I need you.
You show me something that I need to see.
The landscape is in a field of snow with the darkness seen.
It is a winter night.
You grab me and hold me tight.
You whisper sweet things in my ear.
Then we kiss.

The winter night.
You tell me that you love me.
You won't let go.
You want me to stay.
Stay is what I want.
To never let go of this moment.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Kiwi the Artist

There is a woman known as Kiwi.
She is a friend of X33N's.
She is responsible for most of his thumbnails on YouTube.
She does many art work, which it's drawling.
She also plays Minecraft, which she is a savage.
Just watch her on X33N's Sunday stream of Minecraft.
She also did some custom Minecraft items for X33N.
Like the custom head mask of X33N in real life, which X33N says that it does not look like him.
I believe if you release her on any server that has games, she will dominate it.
I am sure if you put her against Thea Nicka, Kiwi will beat her.
Also, why is she called Kiwi?
Because she is from New Zealand.

Sunday, November 5, 2017

A letter (A poem)

Dear Meza,
Thank you for the stream today.
I enjoy it.
I really love that you want to share the fireworks in London.
I wish I could return the favor.
I want to stream the annual Christmas lighting in my hometown.
But, you would be asleep by then, because of the time difference.
I will have it available.
I want to invite everyone that you know.
Including Riza, Astrid, X33N, Angel, Leumas, Mad, Chibi.
It would be fun, wishing all of you would be here.
But, I don't know.
Also, I want to say sorry.
I was typing and yet, I could not come to myself.
I will do more often.

Lindsie

Ps. You look dapper and lovely.

It's hard for me

It's hard for me to say hi to him.
I don't know why?
My heart beats.
Is it because I am shy?
I want to have confidence, but I feel I don't.
Please tell me why?
I need the answer.
Maybe the stream he is doing making it so romantic.
Despite it's daytime here and it's nighttime where he is at.
Aye.

The red hair AngelKyone

Beauty and grace could be the start.
With it, red hair at it seems.
She is really funny when it comes to games.
She is the red hair AngelKyone.
She also known as the locker queen.
Because she hides in a locker, when she is playing Alien: Isolation.
She never hold anger at her friends.
She loves glitter and her cat.
She is really a cool woman.
Once you get to know her from her streams.

The Super Match Everyone is Talking About

Playing on my phone.
Game app end up crashing.
Twitter notification goes off.
It's a huge announcement.
This is a super match.
A match everyone will be talking about until it happens.
Why is this talk about?
Why it's much trending?
Why it's Chris Jericho!
That's nuts!
But why?
He challenge Kenny Omega to wrestling match!
It's insane!
He went crazy tweeting at Kenny before the announcement!
Kenny tweet back at him.
It was nuts!
But, now they will settle it!
In a ring.
I know it's crazy.
But, why am I going nuts?
Well it's really cool that this is happening.
And I like Kenny Omega.
Can't you not blame me?

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Help me

My mind wanders into love and sex.
I can't help it.
It's a terrible thing.
I can't handle the problem.
It's just the way I feel.
I try to distract it.
But, my mind is on you.
Even though we are different.
I live in a miserable situation.
You have to save me.
From the madness.
All I need you is to help me.

Twitch Ups and Downs

So much games.
Streaming as much.
Shenanigans are happening.
Happens with a few.
Like Meza, X33N, and Angel.

Why do I like them?
They make me laugh alot.
I am working to get to hang with Meza.
However, I can't use the computer that is mostly use by my mother.
Because she has her work or her Facebook stuff up.
I am worry that it will crash.
Also, I don't have the other stuff.
It's kinda embarrassing.

I am still getting my Twitch channel work on.
To get the partnership I need.
To make sure this would work.
To make the money, yeah.
I will use it to get a gaming computer.
Then I will join Meza.

We are human.

The days are intense.
The trust are strain.
People needs people.
To rely on survival.
To be safe.
To build what is lost.
To gain trust again.
To be human.
Not to be animals.
We need to be kind.
We can't show hate.
It's not who we are.
It's just toxic if we do.
Because it won't end.
We need to support one and another.
We are human.

Friday, November 3, 2017

Stories

There are stories come near and far.
Mine is different in a sense.
Which one should I tell?
Should I tell about my family?
Should I tell about my friends?
Should I tell you what is what?
I don't know.
A lot of reasons are going through my head.
Madness are afar.
Trust is crafted.

But, why it is the way it could be.
I don't know.
Just let me be.
I guess.

Thursday, November 2, 2017

A poem of a Twitch Streamer named Meza

The Twitch life leads me to a man.
Who resides in London.
His Twitch name is vsbMeza3.
But, everyone calls him Meza.
He mostly plays Minecraft.
But, on Saturdays it's something else.
It depends on what he plays.
His mods, Riza and Astrid are really nice.
I really like them all.
He is really entertaining and makes me happy.
Also, he's a mod for X33N.
He also like to watch Ssundee and Crainer too.
If I had a computer that is not in use by family,
I would duel stream with Meza.
It would be nice.

But, it is only a wish.
I still stream with my phone.
I want to join in games with Meza.
I will still fight for it.