It is days before my birthday.
I should be happy.
Because Chris is verified on twitter.
But, my mother is already messing my emotions.
Because of my grandmother.
I have to questioned with the doubt of ever seeing Chris.
But, greed of my mother is plaguing me.
I don't know where my happiness lies.
Maybe, a friendly talk with Anne and Valentyna could help.
I want to include some others, but one is in lala land and the other is working.
I don't know anymore.
Maybe watching Chris wrestles with Tommy End and against Zack Sabre Jr could help.
I feel lost.
It is my own sadness.